The Unchanging Cost of Discipleship

It's human nature to rearrange truth so that it fits comfortably within self-made, humanistic worldviews. The temptation to do this unfortunately remains after we become Christ-followers, luring us to water down and alter parts of Scripture that challenge our ideals of the Christian life and what we think it should resemble. One area that has been greatly distorted throughout history is Jesus' teaching about the call and cost of discipleship -- to lose our lives for his sake, which he says involves taking up our cross and following him wherever he calls us to go (Lk 27:33). 

What exactly does he mean by that? I remember wrestling with this question as a new believer in my 20's when confronted with Jesus's call to discipleship and the opposing view among many Christians that he was not actually calling for a radical surrender or whole life commitment -- just a heart that believed in him. The problem with this mindset was that it was diametrically opposed to the teaching of all of Scripture, which clearly showed from the time of Adam and Eve that true belief or trust was defined by a surrender to God's plans and desire to walk in obedience to him. This same pattern of trusting obedience was spotlighted in the lives of the great saints in Hebrews 11, beginning with Abel and his offer of a right sacrifice to God all the way to the prophets --  who offered up their very lives for the sake of God's call and Kingdom purposes. There was no mention here of a "middle crowd" that lived out their own plans and went about life like the rest of the world. In fact, Jesus said that anyone living like this would not be present in the Kingdom of God (Matt 7:22-24).

Since Jesus is Lord over all creation and orders the events of the universe (Col 3:1; Heb 1:3), it's only logical that as Lord of our lives he has distinct and specific plans for us. Before the apostle Paul encountered the risen Christ on the road to Damascus, he went about life following the desires of the flesh, pursuing selfish ambition and seeking to make a name for himself. We might say he was living the Israelite religious leaders dream. But when he encountered the Lord, everything changed. He traded his plans for the Lord's, going where Jesus told him to go and doing what he told him to do. Through God's gift of saving faith (Eph 2:8-9), Paul was delivered from the kingdom of darkness to the kingdom of light and from a man-centered life to one that was Christ-centered and characterized by whole hearted devotion to his new King and Lord (Col 1:13). 

Counting the Cost. Jesus knew his disciples and future followers would have difficulty surrendering their lives, along with goals and plans for experiencing what they considered a "good life." He encouraged them to "count the cost" before committing to follow him and gave the practical examples of building a tower and going out to war to illustrate the seriousness of the matter (Lk 14:28-33). In both scenarios, he showed the logical wisdom and necessity of carefully considering the cost before making a commitment to such all-encompassing tasks. He then took his point up a notch to show that the cost of discipleship far exceeded the commitment to going to battle or completing a building project when he said, "Those of you who do not give up everything you have cannot be my disciples" (14:33). 

Taking up our cross. On the heels of calling his disciples to cross bearing, Jesus followed with the imperative, "For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life because of me shall save it" (Lk 9:24). When Christ calls us to take up our cross he doesn't mean to carry some specific burden of our lives like a sickness or a troublesome relationship, though these are sometimes trials we must endure. Instead, he means that we're to live lives of daily submission to his loving authority as our Lord and our God (Jn 20:28).  This kind of cross bearing is not holding onto personal belief or a decision we've made in one hand while clinging to our lives and agendas in the other but is a complete surrender of all that we are and have to his Lordship so that we can experience his resurrection life and bring him glory (Rom 6:5, 12:1-2; 2 Cor 4:11).

The good life. One of my favorite movies is Free Burma Rangers, which documents the lives of the Eubank family and God's call on their lives to ministry among the war-torn people of Burma. As they travel as a family into villages to rescue wounded and frightened families from military assault, they often wear t-shirts with the words, "The Good Life" to show that they've chosen by faith to trust that God's call to Lordship is the way of life and blessing as he promises (Jn 14:6). This declaration of trust, accompanied by their commitment to following the Lord wherever he calls, is evidence of the living faith that Jesus and the other NT writers described (Jas 2:18).

While we may not be called to such a radical lifestyle as the Eubanks, we can be certain that Jesus' call on our lives will take us in a direction that looks very different from the world and its pursuits and will be Kingdom focused (Matt 6:33). As those who have been bought with a price and belong to the King of glory (1 Cor 6:20), we'll no longer live for ourselves but for Christ and his purposes (2 Cor 5:15). The cost and sacrifice is great, but the treasure of receiving life in Christ far surpasses it! In the words of Jim Elliott, "He is no fool who gives what he cannot keep to gain what he cannot lose." 

Unconditional Forgiveness: A Gospel Essential

Conditions based on human reasoning form the fabric of life for most of us in everything from relationships to what we are going to do over the weekend. Our reasoning goes something like this, "If a person is kind, then we'll return kindness; if the weather is nice, then we'll go on the hike." Amazingly, the formula for many decisions is just that simple, and all we need to do is include the if/then part of the equation to come up with an acceptable and workable answer. But when it comes to God's kingdom and especially the concept of forgiveness and loving our enemies, he steps in with a radical reworking of our logic and presents an entirely new way of living in relationships that is contrary to human understanding apart from his Spirit! Instead of following the seemingly logical equation that says, "If a person repents, then I will forgive them" which is echoed throughout the secular world, the Lord calls us to unconditional forgiveness that says, "If a person sins against me multiple times, then I will keep forgiving them because this is what Jesus does with me." 

Some, in an effort to merge the concepts of forgiveness and reconciliation, have come up with a phrase they refer to as "conditional forgiveness." They reason that since forgiveness is always relational between God and man and he requires a lifestyle of ongoing repentance, we can only forgive those who choose to receive it through repentance. Claiming that God asks us to do only what he does, they take Jesus' words in Luke 17:3 as one of their defining proof-texts to show that forgiveness must be conditional instead of unconditional.  In this passage, Jesus says, "If your brother or sister sins against you, rebuke them; and if they repent forgive them." While Jesus is clearly speaking of forgiveness here in the context of a person's act of repentance, he speaks about the need for unconditional forgiveness in many other passages. In isolating this verse from the rest of Scripture, this view of conditional forgiveness fails to take into account God's true character and nature and humanity's inability to serve as just and accurate judges, especially as it relates to matters of the heart. It also seems to bypass the very heart of the Gospel, which reveals God daily offering extravagant grace and forgiveness to his children, who though made new through faith in Christ, cannot walk in perfect holiness and repentance with God this side of glory.

"We love because he first loved us" (1 Jn 4:19)

Our ability to love anyone and show them kindness only comes as God pursues us and "[pours] out his love in our hearts by the Holy Spirit given to us" when we come to saving faith (Rom 5:5). Long before we "decide" to put our hope and trust in Christ as Lord, God comes and reveals himself as the One who longs to rescue us from a life of sin and rebellion and show us compassion if we will trust in him.  Like the Father in the parable of the Prodigal Son, he runs to meet us before we ask his forgiveness (Lk 15:11-32). It's his extravagant kindness, not his just judgment, that leads us to repentance as Romans 2:4 shows. While he is clear that we must come to him in repentant faith to receive his gift of salvation, this repentance (like the Prodigal's) does not in any way merit his favor (Eph 2:8-9), which he says has been set on us from the foundation of the earth (Eph 1:11). Even as his adopted children who are called to walk with him daily in repentant faith, we are reminded that this does not merit our relationship with him. Instead, it serves as an indication that we are, in fact, born again and no longer enemies of God but his beloved children. This good fruit, in keeping with repentance, is a sign that we are a "good tree" or one's who have now been engrafted into the vine (Matt 7:17). 

Another passage proponents of conditional forgiveness use to show that we, too, should only forgive those who repent is Matthew 6:14-15, "For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive you" (Matt 6:14-15). Rather than this passage teaching that our daily repentance is a way of keeping God's forgiveness and earning our salvation, it shows that unwillingness to forgive is ipso facto incongruent with the life of the redeemed. As the apostle John writes, "Whoever claims to love God yet hates a brother or sister is a liar. For whoever does not love their brother and sister, whom they have seen, cannot love God, whom they have seen" (1 Jn 4:20). Because God has forgiven us all our past, present and future sins (Rom 4:7), we're called and empowered by his Spirit to walk in the same kind of unconditional, ongoing forgiveness and love (Gal 5:22-23). This seventy times seven kind of love that Christ taught about and modeled is one of the key litmus tests of 1 John that reveals we are, in fact, born again of the Spirit and not still dead in our trespasses and sins (Jn 3:1-21; Eph 2:1-10)!

Instead of teaching conditional love, Jesus taught that our forgiveness has nothing to do with another person's admission of their sins against us when he says, "And when you stand and pray, forgive anything you may have against anyone, so that your Father in heaven will forgive the wrongs you have done"  (Mk 11:25). When Stephen was being stoned, he expressed forgiveness toward those stoning him, even though they were murderous and unrepentant toward him (Acts 7:60). Jesus spoke words of unconditional forgiveness over the ones who opposed and crucified him, choosing instead to entrust himself to the Father who judges justly and knowing that God would bring vengeance at his proper time -- which he did forty years later (Lk 23:34). 

"There is only one Lawgiver and Judge" (Jas 4:12)

Beyond relying on a diminished understanding of God's grace and kindness toward sinful humanity and his call for us to "live as Jesus did", the idea of conditional forgiveness neglects to take into account the limited understanding of humanity regarding one's own heart motives and sin, as well as the heart and motives of others. Adhering to this teaching of conditional forgiveness requires that a person also takes on the forbidden role of both the Lawgiver and the Judge -- the one who determines who is guilty and not guilty, why they are guilty and what has to be done about their sin. While this appears doable when it involves cases addressed by existing laws and regulations, it becomes dangerous and detrimental for the many other incidents and issues that are less clear and primarily involve motives of the heart. For example, if someone repeatedly responds to us in a way that we consider highly offensive but they consider it in line with the teaching of Scripture and as normal behavior, we have a problem. If we choose to be offended and can only forgive if they repent, even though they may not see that repentance is necessary, we have to either accept that we are wrong and and must repent or establish ourselves as God, Judge and Lawmaker (Jas 4:12). It's easy to see that a person exercising this kind of judgement James writes about would become increasingly self-righteous and begin to have contempt for just about everyone -- from an unkind colleague to their family member who is unable to love them in a way that meets their standards. 

This kind of limited forgiveness is also an ingredient for disaster in one's marriage and family. Imagine a marriage where each partner is expected to repent of every major offense against the other in order to receive forgiveness. While the goal in Christian marriage is walking in love for God and one another, it's clear from Scripture and all of Christian history that this involves the process of sanctification and often does not happen instantly. For example, what is the husband of a disorganized wife or vice versa to do if full repentance does not take place immediately when this sin is uncovered and discussed? Is the offending spouse to be cut off, removed from relationship and held at a distance until he or she repents? Or how is a parent to continue his or her relationship with a dependent, unrepentant child based on the concept of conditional forgiveness? By nature, this would require stopping fellowship with the child until he or she repented. Christian psychologists, along with secular ones, have shown that this kind of hot/cold, push/pull relationship does not promote reconciliation but instead produces hurting, unstable children who do not understand the concept of grace. 

While these examples may seem silly or irrelevant, in order for this concept of conditional forgiveness to be true, it must by nature pass the practical, correspondence and coherence tests. It not only fails the practical test in its inability to be applied to everyday relationships in a way that brings glory to God, it also fails the correspondence and coherence tests in that it does not line up with the overall teaching of Scripture regarding God's extravagant mercy toward us and his call to unconditional forgiveness as seen throughout Scripture.

A True and Better Way

Thankfully, Jesus provides a true and better way of handling conflict and offenses, reflected in his teaching and his own response to sin and evil. He said, "Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven...for the measure you use it will be measured to you" (Lk 6:37-38). In the immediate context he shows that even sinners do good to and forgive those who do good to them. But God's children are to live in a completely different way by loving their enemies, doing good to them and lending to those without expecting repayment because "God is kind to the ungrateful and the wicked. Be merciful just as your Father is merciful" (Lk 6:35-36). God wants us to walk like Jesus did so that we reflect his love and mercy, while leaving judgment to him as Jesus modeled, "He entrusted himself to the one who judges justly." (1 Pet 2:23). He shows that he alone is God, and only God can couple forgiveness and reconciliation. As mere humans, we are commanded to hold them apart -- after all, we are not and never will be God. (Rom 14:4, 10). 

As humans who cannot equate forgiveness with reconciliation, we are encouraged to leave vengeance to the Lord and instead seek to "live at peace with all men as far as it is possible with us" (Rom 12:17). If someone refuses to repent of their sins and we're to remain in relationship with them, we can consider them an enemy which also requires unconditional forgiveness. This involves following what Paul and Solomon said, "If your enemy is hungry, feed him. If he is thirsty, give him something to drink" (Rom 12:20; Prov 25:21-22). In the context of Paul's teaching in Romans 12, he concludes with the same thought as the Lord Jesus, echoing his Sermon on the Mount, "Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good" (Rom 12:21).  For us to be like God as image bearers reflecting his glory, we are to be merciful like he is merciful instead of looking for ways to extract justice, which is the human default when we hear the words conditional forgiveness. Whether we are dealing with a friend or a perceived enemy, the Lord shows that our response remains that of love.

"First take the log out of your own eye" (Matt 7:5)

Jesus provides a prior step to forgiving that is found in both the Sermon on the Mount (Matt 5-7) and the Sermon on the Plain (Lk 6). He asks, "Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your own brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?" (Lk 6:39). Prior to forgiveness, he says we are to look to God the Holy Spirit to give us grief and sorrow in our own heart for anything we have done wrong so that we can repent. Otherwise, Jesus says we will be like blind people leading the blind into a ditch (Lk 6:39), and we will train all of our children and followers to become blind guides and contempt-filled people, which he warns is an abomination before God (Lk 16:15).

When we have repented of our sins with the grief given by the Holy Spirit (2 Cor 7:10) we are free to release unconditional forgiveness. It's only with that releasing of unconditional forgiveness that we can see clearly enough to candidly draw an offender's attention to their sin against us. As Leviticus 19:17 warns, "Do not hate your brother in your heart" -- that is, hold onto bitterness and unforgiveness toward them. Instead, "Rebuke your neighbor candidly so you will not share in his [or her] guilt" (Lev 19:17). As we have allowed the Lord to show us the greatness of our own sin, we are able to forgive our brother and approach him or her with hearts of compassion and humility knowing that we are also in need of great mercy and forgiveness. When we fail to take this step when appropriate, we share partially in their guilt (Gal 6:1-2). Moses then immediately says, "Do not seek revenge or bear a grudge against one of your people, but love your neighbor as yourself. I am the LORD" (Lev 19:18).

And last, after repenting, releasing vengeance (unconditional forgiveness) and candidly rebuking in love, we are free to seek true reconciliation. As Jesus said, If you are worshipping and "there remember that your brother has something against you...first go and be reconciled to your brother; and then come" back to worship (Matt 5:23-24). God desires that we be "united in spirit and purpose" (Phil 2:2) and that we "keep the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace" (Eph 4:3). His goal for us as his children is that we practice ongoing, unconditional forgiveness toward one another, both toward our friends and those we perceive as our enemies. This often involves speaking the truth in love and humbly confronting others when they sin against us. At the same time, he reminds us that "it is a man's honor to overlook an offense" (Prov 19:11). 

The way of wisdom and grace requires that we approach the whole issue of forgiveness and repentance from a posture of humility and love -- seeking to reflect God's grace and truth to others in the same extravagant, life giving way that we've received it on a daily basis and never forgetting that we, apart from God's amazing grace, deserve eternal death (1 Cor 5:10). It's impossible to do this if we come to relationships with the concept of conditional forgiveness -- establishing ourselves as God and Judge and seeking to extract justice instead of leaving vengeance to the Lord and loving our neighbor as ourself. 

"I forgave you that tremendous debt because you pleaded with me. Shouldn’t you have mercy on your fellow servant, just as I had mercy on you?" (Matt 18:32-33)

Half-Full, Half-Empty Paradox

The half full-half empty glass of water paradox has been used forever to describe polar opposite perspectives people have about situations and life in general. I think many of us have labeled ourselves as one or the other. Because I'm a realist, my tendency is to see myself as a "glass half empty" kind of person, while my husband, who's an eternal optimist, views most situations as hopeful and see the glass half full most of the time. 

I’ve fought hard to defend my perspective, arguing that without realists the world would soon end in chaos with people building castles in the sky. My husband counters that visionaries and dreamers keep hope alive and without them people would perish. As I was thinking about this concept recently, it occurred to me that both perspectives are essential for maintaining a biblical worldview which always includes suffering as well as redemption. Bringing them together challenges people like my husband and me who want to polarize positions and tout our view as superior.

Jesus didn’t seem to think that there had to be a choice between the two perspectives, but encouraged the disciples and believers to embrace both outlooks, with a foundational commitment to the fact that the half full glass will eventually, at the consummation, give way to a perpetual overflowing. He said, “In this world you will have trouble, but be of good cheer for I have overcome the world” (Jn 16:33). Paul, in recounting his sufferings, made sure to include both the half empty and half full portion of the picture when he said, “We are pressed on every side, but we still have room to move. We are often in much trouble, but we never give up. People make it hard for us, but we are not left alone. We are knocked down, but we are not destroyed. Death is working in us because we work for the Lord, but His life is working in you” (2 Cor. 4:8-12).

Both spoke realistically of suffering and evil, but at the same time they saw resurrection hope as the antidote to discouragement or despair. It never honors God for us to deny reality that there’s a spiritual war raging. Jesus warned Peter that the enemy wanted to sift him like wheat (Lk. 22:31). He knows that each of us faces similar trials and temptations from the world, the flesh, and the devil, and he warns us in His Word that unless we face them, suit up in our spiritual armor, and pray for His sustaining power we’ll become casualties on the battle lines (Eph 6:10-18). 

Because He offered up His own life to secure our triumph over sin and death, it’s clear He doesn’t want us to allow an attitude of defeat to rule our lives. Instead, He yearns for us to have eyes to see and ears to hear His call to acknowledge that the battle is definitely raging and the enemy who tried to destroy Him at the cross remains our enemy (1 Pet. 5:8). But He doesn’t want our focus to stop there – at what could look like a half empty glass. He summons us to fix our eyes on the greater reality of the cross, the resurrection, and the promises of Revelation so that we’re able to determine with fortitude that even though we’ll experience immense trouble and attacks from the enemy “greater is he who is in us than he who is in the world” (1 Jn. 4:4). He has already overcome the world, and as His daughters and sons we’re victorious with Him. By faith we can say in every situation, no matter how distressing it is, that we are more than conquerors through Christ (Rom. 8:37). We have His promise that He’s with us to the very end (Mt. 28:20), His Spirit’s power is within us giving us strength (Eph. 1:19-20), and He always leads us in triumph (Col. 3:15). 

Yes, in some ways it appears the glass is half full: many suffer from sickness and disease, marriages struggle, jobs are lost, people we trust let us down. But for the Christian the story never ends on the sorrowful note. Hope remains and healing will come both in this age and in the age to come (Mk. 10:29-30). God is in the process of making all things new. And even in the middle of the worst life experiences, He’s reminding us, whispering to our hearts, that He’s with us in our pain and suffering. The sun will shine again, healing will come, and hope can never be extinguished. We are more than over-comers through Him!

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers,  neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord (Rom. 8:38-39).

When What's Good Seems Bad

God promises that he is giver of "every good and perfect gift" and that he "withholds no good thing" from us (Jas 1:17; Ps 84:11). We see this aspect of his character and nature from the first verses in Genesis where he speaks the earth and all that's in it into being, declaring that it is "good" and that his creation of humanity is "very good." When he encounters Moses at the burning bush, he uses "good" again to describe the land he is giving to them -- "a good and spacious land, a land flowing with milk and honey" (Ex 3:7). But after spying out the land and looking over the people, the cities and their power, ten out of the twelve men saw what God defined "good" as "bad", and they wanted nothing to do with his plan. As I was reading this passage today and thinking about how their response differed from Caleb and Joshua's, I saw how faith in God and his promises not only brings assurance that he is working everything together for our good (Rom 8:28), but gives us clear vision to see things as they truly are and not just how they appear on the surface.

All twelve of the men came back in agreement that the land "does flow with milk and honey" and they showed the large cluster of grapes, along with the figs and pomegranates, to prove it (13:28). They all saw this aspect of the land's goodness -- its fertile soil and ability to produce abundant fruit. But the powerful people, the fortified cities and the giants overshadowed this blessing so much that it moved them to speculate about their future defeat. Their lack of faith, or rather their faith in man over God, caused them to shrink back in fear instead of trusting in God's demonstrated power and greatness. He had already proven himself to be mighty and faithful in rescuing them from the Egyptians, miraculously parting the Red Sea and then providing for them all that they needed. And he had given Moses his Word that he would go before them and fight for them. But this was not enough for them to trust him.

As they rejected him and looked instead through the lens of unbelief and fear of man their situation was distorted to such a great degree that they became terrified, while the other two men were confident and at peace. Without God in the equation as the one who was mightier than the armies of the world, the Hittites, Jebusites and Amorites appeared stronger and their land looked like one that "devours those living in it" (32). The people who were objectively tall people became in their imaginations so huge that they felt "like grasshoppers" compared to them (33).  Without trust in the Lord and his promises, this felt like a bad and utterly impossible situation that was not worth their risk, even though it meant direct defiance of God's commands.

While Israel's ensuing wilderness wanderings clearly show how unbelief and the fear of man can distort reality, we see this same struggle throughout Scripture as many refuse to believe God and reject what he says is good. And we, unfortunately see this in our own lives as well. Last week, we were talking with friends about what it means to walk closely with the Lord and to experience persecution for the sake of the Gospel. My husband and I have also been watching documentaries of the persecuted church in the Middle East and China, reading stories about Christians who are suffering unjust imprisonment and even death, and most recently listening to the account of the Canadian pastor who was persecuted for opening his church during the pandemic and is now in solitary confinement and in chains. 

As I was reading these stories of persecution and recalling our conversation, I was tempted to see them only as "bad", wondering how anyone could endure this. I was also tempted to seek out a safe and comfortable life instead of the one Christ has called me to live. In praying this morning, the Lord showed me that I was being tempted to think with the same mindset as the Israelites, which elevated safety and fear of man over honoring God. To yield to this mindset would involve rejection of his Word, which speaks about persecution as a necessary aspect of the Christian life. I was reminded of many passages that call persecution and insult for the sake of the Gospel "good", since it is evidence of a life bearing fruit for God's glory (Jn 15:18-25). I also remembered Jesus' promise that we would not only experience great opposition from the world to the Gospel but that it would even come from our family and the religious community, "You will be hated by everyone because of my name, but the one who perseveres to the end will be saved" (Matt 10:22). He warned that some would be so deceived by their self-righteousness that they would think they were doing God a favor by forcing them out of the synagogue and killing them (Jn 16:2). 

Even though these examples from the book of Numbers, the Gospels, and  my own experience, seemed far apart in their relevance, I began to notice the common thread of unbelief and fear of man and its similar implications. Like the Pharisees, the Israelites denied the goodness of God and refused to enter his rest of trust, approaching him and life through the lens of what they could see rather than the lens of faith.  Their decision to call what's good bad and what's bad good cost them God's future blessings, and brought suffering on the believing community.  The unbelieving Israelites lost their lives, and all who agreed with them were forbidden from entering the promised land which meant the whole group had to remain in the wilderness for 40 years. The unbelieving Pharisees came under God's judgment, not only for their own sins, but also for those of their fathers who were also instrumental in killing the prophets (Lk 11:50; Acts 7:52). And if I chose to live in unbelief regarding God's declared goodness of suffering for righteousness sake, I would forfeit many blessings and risk that my actual declared faith in Christ was counterfeit (Rev 21:8; Lk 9:26; Lk 12:5).

God is encouraging me today to come to him and remain in his rest of faith -- actively listening to, trusting and obeying in the Spirit's power what he says is good and right and rejecting the temptation to call good bad and bad good Cor 10:13). Whether he is calling me to take a step of faith one day to serve in a country that looks like a land of giants or to experience unjust suffering and persecution right where I am, I can do both in confident trust that behind the veil of what looks "bad" is always the "good" and perfect gift from Abba -- just as he promised.