Many of us believe that if God has called us to something, the path should be straightforward and easy. But Judges 20 provides a sobering reminder that it is often just the opposite. We can be right in the center of God’s will and still experience painful defeat.
When the tribes of Israel heard the report of the evil done among the Benjamites to a fellow Levite and his concubine, who were traveling through their town, they were greatly disturbed. They first appealed to their brothers to release the men who had committed the crime of rape and murder, but the Benjamites refused. As a result, Israel gathered four hundred thousand soldiers and then went before the Lord to ask who was to first go and fight their enemy. The Lord responded that Judah was to take the lead, so they followed His command and went to battle the next morning expecting victory. But to their surprise, they lost 22,000 men. In shock and despair, they “wept before the Lord until evening” and then prayed again, this time asking Him if they were to go back into battle. Again, God responded positively: “Go up against them” (Judges 20:23).
The Lord’s “yes” seemed again to be His guarantee that they would succeed. But instead, they experienced another huge loss of 18,000 men on the second day, leaving them more perplexed and discouraged than before. So once again, they went before the Lord, weeping and praying, but this time also offering sacrifices to Him. When they asked if they should keep fighting, the Lord gave them an even more hopeful promise: “Go, for tomorrow I will give them into your hands” (Judges 20:28).
The missing assurance from the Lord the first two times they inquired of Him became significant when it was present the third time when he said: “I will give them into your hands.” God was moving his counsel from the general to the very specific assurance that He was going to fight this battle for them. Yet they never would have heard this message if they had assumed He was not with them or for them and had given up praying and seeking the Lord. He was testing their faith to see if they would listen to, trust and obey Him.
In His sovereign wisdom, God determined that the loss of Israel’s 40,000 soldiers was necessary before they could defeat the Benjamites. By allowing them to face such a significant loss, they likely saw their own sinfulness, their inability to fight in their own strength and their great need for the Lord’s help. God wanted them to know that He was the righteous judge and that this battle, along with all others, was His. In fact, in Judges 20:35, we read that it was “the Lord [who] defeated Benjamin before Israel.” He gave them wisdom to devise an ambush, and when they counterattacked, He caused the Benjamites to become terrified and flee.
Israel could have easily assumed after the first and second losses that they were completely out of God’s will. They could have stopped praying, and given up on the battle, or they could have determined to do it in their own strength without Lord’s help. Either way, they would have missed God’s blessings and His best—which can only be experienced through a life of dependence on Him and His presence. Instead, they poured out their hearts, weeping and lamenting over their losses, while looking up to fix their gaze on the Lord, who they knew could help and comfort them.
Their story reminds me of the importance of seeking God’s will and also staying the path He has called me to until He shows me to move in a different direction. This means refusing to give in to despair when my circumstances do not go as I have planned. Recently, God has used defeat to teach me greater dependence on Him, allowing losses and suffering to press me into more intense times of prayer and lament—not to win his favor, but to realign my heart to better understand, desire, and obey His will.
“We do not know what to do, but our eyes are on you” (2 Chronicles 20:12).


